結果連假不認真工作,到處跑(艸)。友人原要拿東西給我,這幾天睡不太好,於是週六先休息了一天(當晚又失眠幾乎沒睡),約在週日。昨晚懶惰的訂了麥當勞外送,吃完炸薯條的今早發現右臉長了5顆痘子Q口Q!天要亡我~~~~~(哀號)

  失眠的膚質+換季+大爆痘+想到今天是喵吉拉生日掉了2滴眼淚=完全黑眼袋與浮粉的一天

  其實出門前有相當多的猶豫,小紅報到身體也有點不適,昨晚又沒睡好,精神略不濟很怕跟太久沒見的友人冷場,各種擔心。一早起來就猶豫要不要取消行程,不過太臨時又不好意思,只好硬著頭皮搭車回天龍國...

  結果今天都沒發生什麼擔心的事,算是非常順利吧,也快速地逛了一圈熟悉的地盤,聊聊植物,假期在做什麼之類的日常。感覺離開天龍國的生活喪失鬥志,整天都懶懶的,相較一直在認真唸書考試的友人真是超級上進Orz寶寶懶惰寶寶知道。

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  晚上刷到朋友的貼文,說三觀契合的人,不需要特別努力就能成為朋友,而太過努力去討好的關係,往往最後都很慘。看完之後陷入沉思,的確現在留下來的朋友,都是想法和觀念較接近的,物以類聚,人以群分,好像從日常生活關注的時事或表現出的態度,默默決定了彼此是不是同個群體。太過努力討好的假象,到最後忘記自己是誰,徹底失衡,對於這樣的人格側寫實在頗有感觸,時時提醒自己別去為了成為他人眼中的期望,而假裝是誰,更常問自己,在每個當下我願意做些什麼,如此才不再勉強自己。

  但有時候因為責任,還是會用理性勉強自己,以符合大眾的普遍期許與正常(不能太跟現實脫節)。

 
  覺得更多時候,或許歌曲更能訴說無法說出口的話吧。

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I just saw you
Beyond the course of time
A room that we once shared
But my memory's a haze
Forgetting what was said

 
I gently held out my hand
And in that perfect moment
You disappeared I lost you over again

 
In a shallow sleep I dreamt I was seeing you
Just how I remembered
Brimming with tenderness

And somewhere in the caim
A feeling that nothing had ever changed
Your presence close beside me till I wake


 
I just saw you
A moment far too brief
Before the daylight came
But my heart is beating fast
Perhaps we'll meet again

 
In a shallow sleep I dreamt I was seeing you
Just how I remembered
Brimming with tenderness

And somewhere in the calm
A feeling that nothing had ever changed
Your presence close beside me till I wake

 
I see you until I wake from shallow sleep

 
An artist without a brush
Can't paint upon the canvas
Without you here there is no colour
A colourless landscape

 
In a shallow sleep I dreamt I was seeing you
Just how I remembered
Brimming with tendrness

And somewhere in the calm
A feeling that nothing had ever changed
Your presence close beside me till I wake
I see you shallow sleep
 
來源: Musixmatch
作詞/作曲: Hyde
《SHALLOW SLEEP》歌詞 © Sony/ATV Cross Keys Publishing
 

 

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